I hate today...everyone tell me to forget about her and concentrate on exam...
Yes today is exam day...out of 9 papers, there is only one question that i didn't get it. So by assumption i think i will do quite well.

Practical exam, i was the first to finish. Overall i think everything is good.
Food taste, texture, colour all seems good...
I have confidence i'll do well...
So now how? i got one more practical exam tomorrow morning which is nothing to me.
Its idiot proof, just follow recipe and everything will be good.

The moment i came out of school, the feeling struck me again...!
The feeling of depression...i really still cannot accept the fact.

Went over to grandma house, its her birthday today...
Chit chat to her awhile and didn't eat much...
The feeling of vomitting is there again...
Grandma, aunt edna and my uncle all ask me why i look so haggard, so thin?
Am I?

Aunt Edna say to me "even though i don't know whats wrong with you, but relax yourself, why so hard on yourself?"
Maybe i am, grandma say things to me again...
Everytime she tell me all these, i feel so guilty...
Why can't i fulfil her wish?

I think my social life is zero...
People whom i'm suppose to love and care for, i didn't.
People whom i shouldn't even give a damn about, i did.

This feeling is killing me!!!
Argh.........