Rarely see my sis at home, and i see her yesterday and we chat till 2am.
Guess what, we are sort of in the same situation, except that hers is somewhere hanging while mine is over and done with. Funny that when we talk, we realise we both have the same thinking when it comes to relationship. Its in the blood.

She's back from holiday today, and as much as i wanted to call her...
I have to hold myself back...
Its such a terrible feeling not able to do what you want to...
Do you feel happy when someone you like call you?
Or do you feel pressurised? (if pressurised? is there still positive feeling?)

Different people move at different pace. You cannot rush them to feel things faster...But i hope eventually we'll still reach the same destination.
I really want to wait. But for how long i don't know... Especially under such circumstances where the situation is so bad that i can't even figure out where am i standing and moving to...