Went to work this morning and heard that my colleague's father passed on...
So that means that i gotta work on mon, tue and wed morning...Had an agreement that i was to go on a 3 "half day" off so i can study for my exams...

Life is unpredictable...things happen when you don't expect it to...
Today was a very busy day and chef wasn't around...He went to JB to get tickets for his family trip to Genting...

Henry and me didn't have time to even think...its a case of "don't think, just do"
Its good to be busy, i don't have time to miss W. But during shift break, the feeling came back again...Henry say if i'm his brother or buddy, he'll gimme a tight slap to wake me up. lol...2nd time i heard it in a week. Another friend told me that too.

Is it a sin to think of the one u love?

Subjective, nevermind about it.

During shift break, talk to boss about schedule for mon,tue and wed...end up we talk and the subject came to his love story ("_")'
"Concentrate on what you have to" he told me...
Its nice that even though he always fuck us around, he actually have a soft side as well, as least i see tears in his eyes when he tell me his love story...LOL!

Guess alot of people working in the kitchen went through my stage of life...
When they started out in the kitchen, the pressure of being a trainee, the pressure of being scold anytime, anyhow...the pressure of working long hours, the pressure of not having a healthy social life...but thats what i have to endure to make it to the top...too bad i choose this profession.

With or without wen, life goes on...i am still me. I still want to be a successful chef!

Its naturally to be sad, if i'm not then it means she never meant anything to me at all.
I tried, maybe i didn't try hard enough...
if she leave because i do something wrong then i deserve to be sad and guilty.
but she leave because of reason only she know and i don't know...so what can i do?

For now...all i can do is to drink, at least it helps me to get some sleep.

For a better tomorrow! Cheers!