Today my dream die...Theorically its dead for sometime.
I just didn't feel it'll hurt so much.. Right to the core of my heart.
I thought i've come to my senses..I thought i'm not supposed to care anymore.
As so i thought...

When we open the account, it open up our dreams...
i never show my emotions, for i know its still a distance away, but inside me i was ecstatic
our dream house,
our dream car,
our dream vacations..
and so much more to dream...
but i never dream that my one sided dream lasted all but only 2 months...
fool? joker? or whatever...i'm just so hurt...

Its the hardest feeling on Earth when you feel terribly painful on the inside and still have to put on the nonchalantly cool manner on the outside.

我压抑自己的感受， 真的无法呼吸， 只能一直看着地板，应为我怕眼泪忍不住。
她离开的那一秒， 我终于松了一口气， 滴下一滴眼泪。
一直忍，一路走， 上了车我再也无法控制那心痛的情绪。
我才明白其实心没变，但...人，事，物都以不属于我了。

没有出路，心里有数...

so much efforts spend into my work...为的不是这样的结局。