I'm sick, i got 2 days MC, i go to work.
I think i'm able to work, i don't want to be at home doing nothing..
so i work...morally okay? But what if people caught my virus??
Am I causing harm instead? Hai...didn't think of that. Good or Bad how to judge?

Every once in a while...people come to a crossroad.
Where to walk, what path to take depends a lot on current circumstances.
The path i choose to head into; may not be the most suitable one,
but at that point of time its hard to see beyond the other path that i would have took.

绕了一圈又回到原点, the 1st time i took up competition was because of avoiding, to buried myself so that i would not have time to feel upset.
2nd and 3rd time all for the same reason.

one year have gone by...又回到原点吗？

这次是为我自己...i really want to find success in my area of interest.
I have no retreat route, no support railings on the sidewalk, i can't fall because all i have left is this. This is it...do i have what it takes?

Inspiration comes when a person is highly motivated...
Not when a person is vex, vex, vex!

Please give me strength to carry myself through this hurdle...

I thought i thrive on pressure...somehow i'm crumbling away bit by bit...