I did something amazingly stupid 30 mins ago...
I GOOGLED my name together with the word 'chef' and it really pop up a valid return on sff webby...

So can i consider that my first milestone of my life?
Damn bullshit ya? Too bored...nothing better to do..

Was thinking about how i've progress over the past 2 years...
I think i'm quite a cook but i can be really really inconsistent.
I allow myself to drift too much, and i listen to people's opinion too much.
I tend to think too much into the finer details that i forgot the joy of cooking.
Maybe its peer pressure, maybe its the ambition to be better than the rest.
Studied too much into the changes as temperature rises and things as such that you start losing that joy...

DJ told me today how nice I am..I really wonder am I?
I don't think so, I totally don't think so...I think I'm really F up at times..
Maybe I'm too easy going that's why I get taken for a ride too often lately?
I don't know why? Why the change? People really do change maybe?
I'm a walking example ya? Maybe its karma? For being such an asshole during my younger days...

As people always say, its lonely at the top. BUT its so CROWDED at the bottom.
I hate to crowd together, haha i like my own comfy zone, big enough to have some freedom.

Successful people are those who are not afraid of failure?
So since i failed so many times...am i going to be successful?
LOL damn shit damn lame today..