Finally put my heart down and determination up, wanting to do a last minute revision, go through all my notes..realise my study desk was in a real mess so started packing up...
Saw last year calander lying around, flip through month by month and realise how difficult it was trying to make things work in the beginning...we always write down our schedule day by day and compare and set aside a day or two a week so that we'll have some time together...
Then everything started changing when i went to my attachment at BPS, that waking up @ 7 am, reaching home @ 11pm working life start to kill my passion and totally mess up my life...Was at ivan's place just now and realise i've lost touch with 'technology' haha...what have i been doing for the past 8 months? All work and no life...

I thought i've lost the meaning of life...
Still 23 and already gave myself up...pathetic!
Wasted so much on school fee, end up with so much unhappiness.
People who knows me well enough will know how shitty school life is going on for me,
work life is killing all my enthusiasm, and personal life is *sigh*

Some things i've come to realise after joining BPS and now SATS..
you may have a better way of doing things, but wait till you become somebody.
Chef's method may not be the best way out,but its the only way.
Better to bend with the wind, than to break your spirit.
If you can't beat them, join them..

In a way, it kills off the creativity and passion unless you can climb up fast enough before your ideas run out...why are there so many people whom after so long still contented with being a nobody? The only explanation i can find is they have gave up their passion, and willingly being a lackey. Collect their salary at the end of the month and find joy with that puny sum of $$.