These two days bakery class was really interesting..
Dough is such an interesting ingredient to work with..
Temperature, texture, time, touch.
Made some breads, pear tart and quiche lorraine for practical lesson..

Just check my email again, its confirm that i have to go back for reservist on Mon!
Oh my goodness...have to dig out all my army kit covered in 2 years of accumulated dust...just as well..time to take a 'break' from work...Hope the platoon will pop up more familiar faces than just TengDa alone..haha

Looking back...those were really a fun part of life...
though sucky at times, but the experience was just unbelievable..

Was bitching around during supper...a thought came to me that have i look at myself from a neutral point of view? Am i gonna make it in 5 years? or so i hoped!
Connection is really important, but 'integrity' is as well important (to me).
Can i let my 'integrity' down so as to boost my connection?

I've always tell myself...true ability is there to be seen.
I rather people let me down than for me to let people down...
So can i let myself down? Is this really a society problem or ego problem?
Everyone wants to be somebody but unfortunately...there's only one in a hundred.
Can i?
Luck seems always to evade me...for i influenced it to happen(due to lack of connection).
I hate 'socialising' or doing something for the sake of gaining an advantage or favour in return but i guess it happened so often that it becomes a norm in our society...
Got embroiled into an issue with 'keys/locker', got accusation of being unfair to the rest and doing -quote by J- 'lan jiao dai ji'
Fact is half the people there have their own ways of going around the system...
Come on, we are all people with logical thinking and thus derived at a solution of what would be the best for ourselves...as the saying goes 'to each his own'
Should i be the donkey that stick with my 'integrity' or just surf along with the wave and be the toady of todays' world?
Really pissed when certain things happened because of not what it should have been done but what have not been done. Pretty confusing eh?

And lastly to answer curiosity, its really difficult to open up again after faith have been suffering setback after setback..
Past trio hold unique places which is irreplaceable, and i'm not ready anytime soon to do foolish suicidal decision.