Now i want to clear some misunderstanding, i'm not after anyone at this moment in time.
I may be appreciative of a certain person's character but appreciation and admiration is two different things. Two different people may have certain habits and behaviour in common but its just so normal. I never say she not good. I never say she special. I'm comfortable with everyone and i hope people don't make situation awkward because "nothing is cooking" at this moment.
I'm not saying its impossible but nothing is possible for me at this time, not when i'm just about to embark on my career.
I've nothing to give and i'm not going to be selfish and expect anyone to slog it out along me.
After two failures, i realise pure L is not enough for a life long commitment, you need more than just understanding, you need to be able to accomodate and meet halfway of each other rather then giving or taking what is offered.
I'm planning to study in the second half of next year and i might take only 1 year or if i decide to go Uni, it'll take away 3 years. Or if opportunity comes along for me to set up my own eatery, god knows how long will it take...3 yrs? 5 yrs? 10yrs?
What's a man with no career?
I'm in a position where i'm soft both on career and financial status.
I want to build up a good foundation before i decide on anything else.
I'm not some rich brat who have $ backing behind everything they do,
i'm starting out with nothing but determination & ambition.

God bless those who believe! Good luck!