hai...today did something damn stupid. Was chopping things, thought i can co-ord my left/ right hand good enough so wasn't paying careful attention, gotta a deep cut into my index finger, went pass the nail and into the flesh! Damn pain.

Wore my kickers jean to work today and found out that it's no longer that tight fitting!
Woo hoo! But that also mean all my other jeans now like hipsters, damn loose...
Been wanting to lose that tummy since pri 6, lately getting into better shape due to change in diet...haha

Haha... so late but still my mind is still so awake, guess it gonna be a sleepless night again.
Gotta put a stop to alcoholism!
Been downing those vodkas and baileys i have in my possesion to put me to sleep but i'll have problem waking up and staying awake, then i'll down like 3-4 cups of coffee to stay alert at work, then the cycle continue...zzz

Haven't talk to my dad for a long time, yesterday after i finish my workout session, when i sat down and rest at porch then told him to borrow me the lorry this coming noon, then we started chatting, talk about lots of things, my future, betrayal, starting up a family, conflicts at work blah blah blah... and he told me that my temper is as bad as his but for the sake of certain people he just kept quiet and he sees that i'm behaving the same way in recent times. I know its not a very healthy thing to do, bottled everything up and when things really goes out of hand then flare up all at one go...

But sometime you choose to hurt yourself then to hurt certain people around you, he say thats the reason why he can't quit drinking and smoking. Haha.. go one big round just to cover his ass with excuses!