Okay almost a week since i last blog...
Stupid com gave me lots of problem for the week...
Slept alot of hours today, so battery recharged~!!!
Gonna bring symbol and coco go jab later...
Sooo long never bring them out together le...
Not that i don't want to but its not so easy when the two dumb dumb run in totally different directions and their leash tangle with each other and also your legs...
Haha...k time to get out of bed...

Today was the slackiest ever day possible in the kitchen...
Whole afternoon got only 3 orders, me, tootie ah foo and ah choo each take turn do and thats it for the rest of the noon...
Everyone stand there sing song talk cock... while i hide one corner pratice peeling potatoes and then spend like one hour plus sharpening knives...
Hahaha...then it started raining at 2.45 and it just get heavier and heavier...
Zzz...i spend 45mins rotting away before i can finally get out of hotel...
Then the moment i walk up the stairs leading to home, it started raining again...
No doubt mom waiting at the door for me send her to HG...
Sigh... Its time for supper...
out.

Yesterday went to cine to catch DOA...
Woolala lotsa babes in da movie... Hahaha...
Holly V and Devon A soooooo sexy. =x
After movie went suntec for dinner then to pool,
woo really long time no play pool le...
Need to brush up, zzz lost to J~~!
Went soccer at midnight again...Haha S² went too.
Played till 3plus then have to stop cause mata came... Zzz...
Got an hour of sleep before i went to work...
Went to GWP's kitchen around 10 to pick up things and was like 'WOW, so big! so professional!'
Divided into section and got prep cooks, line cooks, chefs doing their own work, pastry dept so big... Zzz...was thinking 'tmd, i gotta do everything myself from prep to cook to store to clean'
Saw their ang moh exec chef and i asked chef steve why all 5* hotels chef are ang moh... (-_-)"
He replied me something totally irrelevant and say go think about it...
"you ask a chinese chef make pork chop, he make for u, and u ask an ang moh chef make hokkien mee, he goes f*** u..."
No doubt i went dot dot O... (-.-)??? Hahaha...
Chef taught me something new again today,
and tootie ah foo ask me why no breakfast for him this morning, told him yesterday buy breakfast for him, he eat liao go take MC so no food for him today then tootie ah foo gave me $3 ask me buy breakfast for him tomorrow... LOL funny old man...
Never go for lunch cos too sleepy then went locker room sleep half hour then the canteen uncle keep talking to me...Zzz... told him i can't understand cantonese liao still keep speaking in cantonese... i went (-.-)?!?! again...
As usual 2.45pm everyone run and afternoon people nv come in yet and i alone wait till 3.10pm for afternoon shift people come in... Zzz...

For the past 2 days i've been going to the "talk of the town"...
Haha ya its Vivocity...
Watch World Trade Center yesterday night, for the past 2 days didn't get much sleep so was actually quite bored by the long 'drag-gy' flashback of the whole show...
Was half asleep already if not for some parts where there's actually some scene quite light-hearted, good for a laugh...
The movie itself is not actually about the disaster of WTC, but;
its a movie about the power of Faith and Love.

"Pain is good, pain is your friend, if you still feel pain, it means you are still alive"

Anyway i gave up on dieting liao, ever since that "xian de lai" steamboat buffet, i've been eating almost every night... Like hungry ghost... Zzzz... LD...

LOL went to take a look at the 2 cheese cakes, hard as rock...
Zzz forgot only need to freeze a few hours...i freeze them for over 12hrs...
Now left to cool to room temp first bah...

Anyway i tried the chicken pie...i give myself 50%...
Haha not bad for a first try, but the skin sucks, anyway i'm not a pastry chef so *console myself a bit*

The joy of cooking,
issn't in the grocery shopping,
issn't in the preparing process,
issn't in the cooking process,
its when you find people who enjoy the food...

Went grocery shopping after work then straight home to bake stuff.
From 6 till almost 1030 was happily kneading dough, didn't really pay attention at the time .
Finally got 2 cheesecake, one chocolate cheesecake and one oreo cheesecake...
Haha gotta wait for it to settle, so its in the fridge now, can't wait to see it tomorrow!
Then made about 12 chicken pies also...now still in the oven,
can't wait to see if it end up as pie or kueh tu tu...
Haha...

Gotta fetch mama le...Zzz.

Today after work went for medical checkup again...
Luckily this time got enough liquid...(-.-)"
Then got lotsa time before dinner so spend one hour plus rotting in Borders.
Not exactly rotting, pick up alot of tips on cooking...
Wanted to buy a book but was shocked by the price haha...think its $137 or $173.
Nevermind shall get it when i really need it.
Right now just surf net and pick tips & recipes off the net will do
Anyway read up so much today that i can't absorb...
Quite happy that i choose this field because i just enjoy cooking everyday...
Had dinner at Sakae but didn't eat much... Zzz...
Lesson learned, no hazelnut latte before dinner.

Sigh... My sinus problem pestering me again...
Time to go HG fetch mama... Zzz

Night.
Out.

Yes maybe i think too much...
Maybe 'forever love' only exist in fairy tale.

Who was the one who two-timed me?

Who was the one hurling abuse at me all the time?

Touch your heart, ask your conscience,
Tell me how much i let you down.

Acquainted strangers is how i describe
Friends is what we used to be
Sadly, because i choose to complex our friendship
Acquainted strangers we have become

I would rather choose to have two more friends in my life than tons of bittersweet memories.

Last night i slept at 6pm and woke up to find that my hp battery went flat...
Time was about 0740...slept for more than 13hrs...shiok shiok!
Was late for work for the very first time, got a few unfriendly stares which is quite normal...
Got off to work, today western side short of people so learn a couple of new dishes today...
This morning on the way to work was thinking about valentine day and the dishes that i whipped up for someone a couple of years back...haha...
Then during lunch, Chef Charlie complain about having to come up with V Day set dinner...
Haha so coincidence...Anyway its a 6 course meal and he took just 30mins to come up with the whole concept.
So off to the kitchen to see him come up with the appetizer, not bad~!

Anyway made up my mind not to go on the 21st...
I'll have my chance but not now and not this kind of show,
talked to a few professionals and they all agreed that this show is too 'cheapskate'
"unless you want to sidetrack into showbiz, if not don't bother" said my western Shi Fu...
Haha...

Okay haven't switch on the tv for sooooooooo long that it can't be switch on... (-.-)"
Dunno why no power...play with the power on/off for awhile before its finally working again.
Swicth on to see if i can catch the ad on the upcoming 'star chef' show.
Okay good enough it took only like 2mins and i saw the ad.
Oct 21, to go or not to go? Sigh...

Finally i just want to say i'm really no good, i am just me.
Not romantic, don't whisper sweet nothings, not caring, not sweet, dull, uncreative, don't create pleasant surprise, easily predictable, unattentive, short-tempered and violent.
Its true, believe it.
But I am not ashamed of who i am, you can call that thick skinned, "ego" or whatever.

I have been trying real hard but is it me or is it also the two of you?
We all have faults, i admit mine.
Learn to take a step back instead of always pushing on when obviously you can't see what lies ahead.

Acquainted strangers we may have become, but still i wish to see everyone's leading happy life.

Now i want to clear some misunderstanding, i'm not after anyone at this moment in time.
I may be appreciative of a certain person's character but appreciation and admiration is two different things. Two different people may have certain habits and behaviour in common but its just so normal. I never say she not good. I never say she special. I'm comfortable with everyone and i hope people don't make situation awkward because "nothing is cooking" at this moment.
I'm not saying its impossible but nothing is possible for me at this time, not when i'm just about to embark on my career.
I've nothing to give and i'm not going to be selfish and expect anyone to slog it out along me.
After two failures, i realise pure L is not enough for a life long commitment, you need more than just understanding, you need to be able to accomodate and meet halfway of each other rather then giving or taking what is offered.
I'm planning to study in the second half of next year and i might take only 1 year or if i decide to go Uni, it'll take away 3 years. Or if opportunity comes along for me to set up my own eatery, god knows how long will it take...3 yrs? 5 yrs? 10yrs?
What's a man with no career?
I'm in a position where i'm soft both on career and financial status.
I want to build up a good foundation before i decide on anything else.
I'm not some rich brat who have $ backing behind everything they do,
i'm starting out with nothing but determination & ambition.

God bless those who believe! Good luck!

Okay last night went supper with jing,yi, shyan and SEXY squishy haha...
Almost travelled the whole of S'pore.
Went orchard
then to Geylang
then to Changi
then to Jurong
then to Yishun
then to Hougang
finally home at about 0430 slept for an hour and off to work.
What a day at work, its Sat and so busy today.
Orders kept coming and i've no time to rest, finally finish all my work at 1530,
zzz everytime kanna OT but no extra $$.

Hmm reach home slept for another hour and went HG again to help mama,
Jing & Yi came down to makan, haha...
Now i'm just waiting to pick mama home and off to soccer at 12mn.

Yeah tomorrow gotta get high at work again, 2 consecutive days no proper sleep!
But its okay!
New life new philosophy... Sleep less live more!

Got engage into a meaningful discussion over beancurd session just not too long ago.
Love (feeling) or Compatibility (character),
as in; if a relationship comes to a point where there's definitely love elements but character clashes. Often occurs when 'honeymoon' period end.
What would become of it?
Do you persist and try to work it out or do you just give it up?
And if you persist and it leads to nowhere, do you still carry on hoping?
I believe for a Long Term Relationship to work out, you need to balance up both.
Abit of patience, maybe a year or two to see if there's a possibility to maintain or to strike a balance, you don't just decide after a couple of months. (uds mah 6 jiao xing xing?)

Love is just like betting on racing horses, keep buying and hope you strike jackpot?
Haha...just too bad i don't bet...at least not for now.

Ok the sotong resign last night after we close shop, good for him good for us.
See him work makes my blood boil...I never wanted to scold him but for god sake,
If 30 years work experience = stupidity
Then he throughly deserve a scolding from Towkay Kia.
Got to give him instruction on what to do and when i ask him why didn't you do this why didn't you prepare that, he said he didn't think of that and that i qing chu yu lan sheng yu lan,
KNN for that he got scolded left right up down...CCB got so many orders pile so high up still wanna ankat bola and joke around with me.
Anyway that was quite an experience for me as well, to actually lecture a worker thats more than twice my age.

Yesterday mom still tell me not to be so harsh on 'semi-retiree',
i don't understand why she would want to employ people like that,
but my reply is simple 'if there is work to be done, it have to be done'

Today after work went home so shagged liao don't know where still can find enough energy to go HG help mom prepare stuff to open stall...Think i'm sort of becoming a workaholic...

It seems like these days i keep going Woodlands and Hougang...
Today got off like no off like that, Mom's biz opening today(@ hougang blk 703), whole evening spent in the kitchen AGAIN! One week 7 days all spent in the kitchen... (-.-)"
Luckily for me tomorrow no need wake up 0530, work start at 10am till 6pm but still after work got to go mom there to help out till 11pm (OMG thats like 13hrs), the staff in her kitchen sucks... Imagine i have to tell a guy with 30 years experience (as so he claim) what to do...
KNS that guy blur like sotong... Zzz...
Yesterday went "celebrate" moon cake fest with J,L,Y...
Haha we went bugis for steamboat which i think is not too bad.
Then 4 wanderers walk walk around and decide to go Bishan Park play candles...! (-.-)"
After hungry ghost fest. already but J like forgot to go back like that..Haha she keep complain she hungry...Me on diet le! Eat so much with her! lan diao~~!

Today after shifting things to Hougang in the early noon, see still got some hours before dinner peak time so i went to Hougang Swimming Complex to swim and tan...
IT'S SOOOO CROWDED...
So many kids there learn swimming, so cute...
Want to swim also cannot, keep kanna kick by those little boys and girls...
Today Dumb Dumb Coco don't want let me do push up too, he keep running under me when i get into position...Haha... Either that or he'll keep biting at my fingers...
Haha my dumb dumb dog (^o^)!

Just realise i've got 4 days of newpaper which i haven't finish reading. Too tired to read...
And finally after so many months, i can get to eat at my fav. stall in the market tomorrow morning!

So tired and now don't even feel like sleeping again!
Yesterday after driving around for half the day helping W with her chalet set-up then stay behind for BBQ till 11pm(thanks for the invitation), then went for soccer at Toa Payoh at 12mn. Had a really good kickabout last night, long time never see weili, paul, chee beng and their gang and they were all there, the intensity of their game was so high, make me high also, haha... Mel is still Mel, clash with him when we went for the ball and he send me cruising in the air over a distance, now my butt hurt!
Played till 3 plus then went home bath and all and it was like 4 plus, didn't want to sleep cause if i sleep, i doubt i'll wake up at 0530 to prepare for work, so i listen to some songs...
Guess what! I doze off and woke up 0620, (-.-)" rush and took cab down to work! $$ fly away...
At work everything goes wrong, it all started with a sms from a nymphomaniac at 7plus in the morning trying to "CLARIFY" things out with me?!
Why would that be necessary ANYMORE?!
So what if you say it was still your fault?!
Does that make you feel better?!
Or make me feel guilty?
Whatever the case, i appreciate your effort in intruding into someone's else life that have got absolutely nothing in relation with you anymore. There is no need for your "concern", its better to concentrate on your new lust! i mean love. (how fast can u let go of a love so pain and embrace yourself into the arm of a total stranger and still call that LOVE) i think i still prefer to call it lust. Whatever right? since i have the freedom to choose my words. Lust.

Went into the kitchen had 2 cup of coffee, no mood to eat and began working.
Scalded by oil while frying eggs for guests,
Went back into the kitchen and started chopping things up,
Because i know i'm not in the best of state, i TRIED to be very careful!
And i was rewarded with only 2 minor cuts
And i cause the blade of the chopper to chipped off when i tried to chop something that wasn't meant to be chopped at...No point guessing, i'm not telling as it is just too stupid of me.
After which i proceed to boil some stuffs and first thing i do, i put my bare hand into the wok to wipe off the water droplets (forgotting that i already heat up the wok).
Yes i got burned
After i'm done when i pour the hot water away, the wok handle slip off my hand and i got scald by hot water...
After lunch, got order came in and so i proceed to cook, and i don't know what the F***K happened, i got my finger burned by the intense heat coming out of the stove while frying rice...
I feel so F***K up already and finally 3pm is here... so happily i go bath and went straight home. Reach home my mom insist that i be her coolie and help her shift things as her new stall opening soon (this sat). First place she went to Rochor there to see Feng Shui Master to talk cock...
OMG i was FUMING INSIDE~! Instead of letting me rest...i felt so angry...
Then when she finally done with the talking, we went down to Bukit Batok to pick up some kitchen necessities and found out that it was not enough, so we went WOODLANDS to carry on choosing and then we went HOUGANG to pack things up! I haven't eaten for a whole day (yes i skipped lunch again) and barely have enough rest and i told her i'm tired, i wanna go home rest.. It was already about 9pm.HER SHOCKING REPLY AFTER A WHOLE DAY OF HELP "You deserve it, who tell you go chalet, go play soccer..." So i deserve it?
Reminiscences of THAT person flash by again.
Devil h@o shout 'unreasonable' repeatedly in my head...
Angel h@0 said 'luckily for you, you only have one left to help you cultivate your endurance'
Imagine the both of them in MY life, i think i'll die by 30 cause by hypertension + heart attack!
Wooooo...So ANGRY but i clench it so hard inside me that it somehow disappear...

What a great day for me ain't it?!
F***K = FreaK

Sometime you hold so tight, it slips right thru your hand...

hai...today did something damn stupid. Was chopping things, thought i can co-ord my left/ right hand good enough so wasn't paying careful attention, gotta a deep cut into my index finger, went pass the nail and into the flesh! Damn pain.

Wore my kickers jean to work today and found out that it's no longer that tight fitting!
Woo hoo! But that also mean all my other jeans now like hipsters, damn loose...
Been wanting to lose that tummy since pri 6, lately getting into better shape due to change in diet...haha

Haha... so late but still my mind is still so awake, guess it gonna be a sleepless night again.
Gotta put a stop to alcoholism!
Been downing those vodkas and baileys i have in my possesion to put me to sleep but i'll have problem waking up and staying awake, then i'll down like 3-4 cups of coffee to stay alert at work, then the cycle continue...zzz

Haven't talk to my dad for a long time, yesterday after i finish my workout session, when i sat down and rest at porch then told him to borrow me the lorry this coming noon, then we started chatting, talk about lots of things, my future, betrayal, starting up a family, conflicts at work blah blah blah... and he told me that my temper is as bad as his but for the sake of certain people he just kept quiet and he sees that i'm behaving the same way in recent times. I know its not a very healthy thing to do, bottled everything up and when things really goes out of hand then flare up all at one go...

But sometime you choose to hurt yourself then to hurt certain people around you, he say thats the reason why he can't quit drinking and smoking. Haha.. go one big round just to cover his ass with excuses!

Does drinking ice water burn calories?

http://health.howstuffworks.com/question447.htm

Just reach home from work, so tired, stand so long out there today!
Worse than NDP Parade, damn stand for like 11 hours straight with only 30mins break in between for lunch. Both legs so aching, feets so sore.
Can't get to sleep well last night, both eyes so puffy this morning that i can barely open...
Almost late for work for the first time, chiong all the way there, left house 0644, reach workplace and clock in at hmm... 0653? LOL 9mins Personal Best?
Hope i'll never have to attempt to beat my PB again. (^o^)
Sigh...all this for what?
For someone who gave me yet another promise and broke it like in only a few weeks?
To think i actually fall for it... sigh...


48days and counting...

CAVE went JB for dinner just now, the traffic condition not too good, we spend more time in the car than anywhere else i guess... haha... everybody's so tired but still the food is worth the wait!
We thought we got lucky when we found a parking lot, haha but there's a reason why no one want to park there!
Damn funny, its a danger lot, kanna bird shit bombardment the moment we step out of the car!

When i reach S'pore, mom ask me go shift things for her back home then to Hougang.
She change her biz place again! Hai...so shagged so many things to move...
Ya guess what time i reach home?
Damn its 0145 and i need to get out of bed at 0530 and its gonna be a looooooong day for me.
7am to 6pm omg! Can't see the Sunrise / Sunset later le... think of later gotta stand so many hours already no mood...

Sometimes when i think of the things that i've done; i wonder...
Is it worth it? (-_-)''' been thinking too much lately...
Think i'm going bonkers anytime soon...

There's a song for everybody,
A song that makes you feel better,
music therapy that is,
Hacken Lee - Night Melody (月半小夜曲)