It's a roller coaster hell of a month..so much changes here there everywhere.
Maybe i really ain't suitable for it..
I'm just too used to being me , myself and I...
I can't put anything straight without having upsetting one or two peeps..

Its such a chore having to pause and care about people's feeling rather than my own before i do anything..Sometime love ain't just enough.

Dumb shitty feeling..

So there after 14 days of midnights and 4..or literally 3½ days of off days.
Its back to the normal shift again today..but not for long.
I guess my body clock is so screwed up that i keep waking up at 7am these days..
Was supposed to take this off days to complete my list for competition but with the twist of events that happened and the limitation of time.. sigh!

Not that i'm complaining in any way..

Its amazing how i'm feeling these days..its so hard to resist the thought yet...
This have become somewhat of a mental torture but its totally awesome!

Awesome new year for me on a personal note.
While many others spend their new year eve gathering with friends and family counting down and embracing the new year together.
There I am in my kitchen dishing out course by course.
Immaculate timing but alas poor service spoil the flow of action.
We briefly pause for a while for the arrival of 2010, and a short champagne toast with the kitchen team. For the info, its Dom Pérignon vintage 2000. Then i had the second round of toast at 2am with the whole F&B team.
I spend the night at one of the manor in the hotel together with other colleagues who are already soundly asleep except K & M, we had a bottle of Dom Pérignon all to ourseleves and good part of my new year, there's a private pool in the manor. Better than that its champagne by the pool, and the best part of it,i jumped in, naked! LOL..my first 裸泳 expierence! 4 hours into 2010!

In between 2009 and 2010, out of that 48hrs, i spend 40 hours in the kitchen, next thing i knew when i got home, its already the 2nd day of 2010.
Sometime time passes so fast that it freaks me out. i sat there in my car and wonder what am i fighting so hard for...?
All i know what lies ahead for me is 14days of continuous midnight shift.