Its really a very tiring chore forcing myself to go to work..
I don't know how long..or how deep is my tolerance...
Getting zero satisfaction everyday...
Its such a fucked up feeling getting back to zero again!
Been taking out my fustration on the killings..
Yeah like a sadist!
4th time in 2 years...why must i keep dropping back to the bottom again?
Argh! i hate this!

Everyday seems to pass by so slowly..So many things lining up for me to do..
One after one...don't even have time to concentrate on getting stuff done for the competition..now have to make do with arrangment that stretch my limits again..

Been quite a while since i see any of my friends...only get to see wen for a couple of hours the past week and its gonna be a while till we meet again...

being with that doesn't seems to be there...

occupying my time with something that is nonexistent..