This pic was from a competition i took part in recently..
Really...yet again..I guess I've realised enough about competitions of this scale..
Nothing but conspiracies...Haha..The moment i saw Mr John coming in, i knew its over..I was spot on for the top three placing and i wasn't surprised at all..

Been going thru some bad times...I guess its just me..
Always making decisions that goes wrong...Not that i'm pessimistic but Things just don't work out the way i hope it will..
I'm already trying real hard..but people just don't get it..don't they?

Not just people at work, but people close to me..
What must i do? What more must i do? don't i deserve better?

God damn it!

Its really a very tiring chore forcing myself to go to work..
I don't know how long..or how deep is my tolerance...
Getting zero satisfaction everyday...
Its such a fucked up feeling getting back to zero again!
Been taking out my fustration on the killings..
Yeah like a sadist!
4th time in 2 years...why must i keep dropping back to the bottom again?
Argh! i hate this!

Everyday seems to pass by so slowly..So many things lining up for me to do..
One after one...don't even have time to concentrate on getting stuff done for the competition..now have to make do with arrangment that stretch my limits again..

Been quite a while since i see any of my friends...only get to see wen for a couple of hours the past week and its gonna be a while till we meet again...

being with that doesn't seems to be there...

occupying my time with something that is nonexistent..