It have been a long time since i felt sick...
The hot kitchen is so cold and it makes my nose suffer..
Hope i can get accustomed to the temperature as soon as possible...

Today is my off day and i really had a good sleep...untill...
Got a rude shock when i saw 21 missed call from a friend.
Yes..21 missed call from ONE person...
It did get on my nerves a bit, i though something urgent was on the agenda.

Something that was told to me a few days ago just came into thought,
"re-assess who you want to be, what you want to achieve"
"see where you are and decide the course of actions at fixed period"
I think i'm cruising on the right path, but lately i felt that i really don't have the passion...i'm just plain lazy. Quite frustrated with my attitude but i ain't doing much to change anything.

A friend of my mom who's in this industry told me that the faster you push yourself up, the faster you'll fall...Because your foundation is non-existent. Haha...I argued with him for a while and he can't tell me what he meant by "foundation"

I told him my foundation is chinese, hawker style, fine dining style, local, french, english, garde manger, pastry, a bit of regional cuisine and a dash of italiano...

Pretty stuck up attitude eh?! For the info, he was an executive sous chef at ***** hotel in charge of 11 outlets so hmm....
So should i reassess my dream as a modern global chef?
Or maybe i really should reassess my attitude!?

Today is my first day at a whole new place...its a damn big organisation and even though i wasn't really prepared to rot there for half a year, somehow i'm beginning to feel the buzz...today is orientation so basically walk here and there and do nothing, made security pass and took photo, fill in some paper and ended the day with a meeting with EC...what he said to us really just set me buzzing..

My schedule is out...
For the next 6 months i will be working on Sat Sun Mon Tue, off on Wed, school on Thur and Fri.

6 weeks in Premium kitchen
6 weeks in Japanese kitchen
2 weeks in Dim Sum kitchen
6 weeks in Chinese kitchen
2 weeks in Muslim kitchen
4 weeks in Indian kitchen

Was really shocked that ck and me got the chance to go Premium kitchen, its where they prepare food for First and Biz class, menus and recipes sold to us by some famous chefs around the world...its the first time trainees got the chance to go premium kitchen, and the reason EC gave us was really flattering so must gambatei!!!

Went to trim my hair after work, got stab by the saloon boss, i ask her cut shorter but she relunctant to cut...then when she finish cutting she told me 'aiyo don't cut so short lah...your gf don't like leh'
-_-||

Let me post something while i'm still sober for the night..haven't been blogging due to intoxication...every night...Was really busy every single day for the past two weeks...
I do agree when you are busy it takes some thing off your mind.

Singlehood is good except when night falls...you don't know who to miss..?

Went on a trip to M'sia on friday right after school...
I think it was a pretty good trip...slept all the way from JB to KL then spend the night roaming KL then to Subang for supper then spend a couple of hours there before driving up to Ipoh...ck's elder sis came along with her 15 months old baby...yang yang..so cute..we took small route instead of highway and went by a couple of kampungs and stop and eat as we travel...the local fruits were excellent..straight from cameron highland...Ipoh was pretty peaceful (boring) but as usual eat and eat and eat...Was intrigued to know how nightlife is in Ipoh...so instead of fishing, we dig out some old clothing and made our way to the disco...was rather shock...Music so loud and lousy quality, carlsberg there taste funny and yucky, and people are popping pills like nobody cares...the next morning we took turns on the wheel back to KL and made our way back by bus...really interesting trip!

The moment i reach custom, i recieve SOS from my mama and i went straight to help her out...Zzz so busy till almost 9... found out from her one of her worker wanna quit to try out MLM selling health products...another middle aged uncle kanna cheated by some sweet young thing...sad...

Tomorrow first day at SATS. 0830 start work so its time to take my ice cold fermented malt drink with hops and hit the sack! Ciao~!

Past 5 days was really tiring...everyday in school even though i'm supposed to have my one week break...really tiring man...
sun and mon going back to help out again...
Hopefully these couple of days of effort will be repaid on tue.
People put in 3 months of effort while we only had a week to prepare..so fingers crossed =x
even though its none of my 'biz', still hope he can get something for all that he had put in...

life have been stressful for not only me but people around me...its kind of contagious...been going out every night as well and its getting onto me...
really feels weird at times but if thats the only way to get out of that shithole i'm in then let it be...

Finally home...had a hell of a 'good' time.
Fri night I went to bistro to meet up with my colleagues,
and the 7 of us went to drink at somewhere nearby on an empty stomach.
Great suggestion by chef~! Everyone gulp down one can of carlsberg before we set off.

Went to disco and end up ordering 9 jugs in total. so i guess i must have had drank about a jug of singha beer. Meet my school mates at the same place and ended up drinking liquor, no wonder people say liquor and beer doesn't goes well together.
Now i know...never have i drank so much within 2hours. I ended up vomiting a few times, can't walk straight, broke out in cold sweat, doesn't have much self control over my limbs, lol and best of all i can't see...vision is so blur.

For a day in my 24 years of life, i totally lose it. I have a confession to make.
I was offered cigarette, and yes i took it and smoke. My mind was totally out of the world. I feel so terrible that i wish i can die of alcohol poisoning right away. After which 1 guy was so drunk he took a cab home first and the rest of us proceed to geylang for supper after the disco close at 3am.

Me, G and J was so wasted that we slept while the the other 3 seasoned drinkers was still happily enjoying thir braised duck...There's no way me, G and J can make our way home so we followed chef back to holland v apartment to sleep. Had cramps twice while sleeping and vomit another time more.

Woke up on the dot in the morning and was practically 'stoning' in the kitchen.
But of course i'm not the only stone in the kitchen. Haha...last day of work still injured my finger. Now my baby little finger is as big as my thumb!

Finally its over...everyone tell me how fast time flies...
How much they miss working with me...no matter how much i've learn or how much working experience i've gathered, it still doesn't cover back what i've lost during these period of time. I lose more than i gain. I lose someone whom i loved so dearly to someone else who have all the bloody time time in the world to coax and care for her. I lose my social life, i lose sleep, i lose my direction, i even start to lose the passion, the fire, the drive, the determination to seek for perfection in my food.

Last night came home took my barang barang and went over bro place to stay overnight.
Its been really long...think a year since i spent the place at someone else's place...lol the previous one is "xin ru dao ge" again...

Really glad to have meet such a friend, such a good bro who's so nice...
Made me herbal tea, made me soup, made me soya bean drink.
Was trying to finalise some details for his competition and watch Champs league last night...So tired that i keep falling asleep...

The match was good, end to end stuff, great for any neutral fans!
Woke up this morning and Ck made soya bean milk with fried egg, hotdog bun with sausage and parma ham! Wow!

So nice to have a chef as a bro...haha! That breakfast was heart warming!
LOL~! He's the second person who made breakfast for me.
So tonight i'm going over to spent the night again...

Don't worry...i'm still straight okay.

Yet another day gone by...
3 more days left to completion of my first attachment.
Recently work have been really stressful and tiring.
Can't even feel the enjoyment and adrenaline anymore...

Was chatting with my chef during break and he ask what will i be doing next week
and ask if i wanna work next week, told him for the past half year i never had a good break, never once took MC and still want me to work for $3 an hour? He laugh it off and said i gain more than just that...That i've absorbed so much from him already..
Do i really look that dumb? Learning ability is down to myself and nothing to do with him anyway...

Really getting very sick of my work place..One new guy can really bring in lots of unpleasant expierence to everyone. Totally disrupt the team spirit and the work pattern...The trio of J, G and me got really close recently because of that bugger!

The trio of us are in 'zen' mode everyday...today G reach Nirvana already.
I guess tomorrow when both J and G off...i'll have to try to free myself from delusion, worry, and the external world....NIRVANA~!

Had a really tiring weekend so far...
It just sucks when you have to work on weekends right?

Fri after school went back to work and did 66 covers in 3 hours...
3 full hours of madness, so tired and after work sort of make a mess out of a simple meeting..end up sending my friend home and chatting outside his place till 12 midnight..

Today for the 2nd consecutive day full house again...while i can hear soothing music and laughters going on outside, i'm rushing like mad...zzz

So much for passion...

Yet another day pass by, just like that...
wake up every morning, go work...
come home every night, go sleep...
really no life...so bored~!!!!

Looking forward to go school tomorrow, at least can 'relax' a bit more than at work.
Anyway tomorrow is the only day this week that i'm not working..
Friday after school i still have to go back to work...zzz~! ARGH~!

Today henry came into kitchen in the morning with his head slanting to the left,
say he sprained his neck and went to see doc get 2 days MC -____-||
So much to do this morning!! Sous chef on leave, Chef de Partie take mc...
Leave me behind...was like an octopus sweating on the tako pachi hotplate!

Kanna 'sabo' by that !@##$% again...don't know why some people just can't help w/o keeping quiet...must make their teeny weeny bits of work known to the chef...
I do 99% of the work quietly and they fuss about the 1% i missed out on and complain to the chef. Really hate this kind of hypocrites in my working environment.

Nevermind, at least i know i can do what they can't do..
and yes thats the 99% of the work...
lol~!

Looking forward to school!!!!!
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