day after day..is this what i live for?

Love doesn't mean you never get hurt,
pain is always there..will always be there.
Any pain u feel will never ever compare to the regret that comes from walking away from it.
I know exactly how it feels. That tinge, it just linger on.

Most days of the year are unremarkable,
they began and they end with no lasting memories made in between,
most days have no impact in the course of a life, until the day...

Summer is over..its scary when you try to go through your mind,
to think of someone, something...that keeps you who you are.
And you realise that its over. There is no one.
Absolutely no one. Its not a matter of decieving.
Its a matter of fact. A mental blockage. It scare the hell out of me.
I feel empty. 25yrs of accomplishing nothing.

Life holds what now?
I wish that day will arrive. That impact. That autumn.
But not 210 days later.

Trying to be adventurous in my next job search..
Been looking at some interesting places..
damn sad so far..nothing match what i want.

Manhattan, NYC
Ibn Battuta, Dubai
Mykonos, Greece

i just wanna get away from this damn place. this toot island.