Last year this time you put me through this.

Then you told me we'll work through it together.

This year this time you gave up again.

不知不觉这些日子里

退了又退，一直往后退

一再的被放弃，我还是那么执著

你要的自由，我真的给不了吗？
离开。。。是唯一选择吗？

是时候清醒了吧
往后退多了，都差点忘了前面还有出路。
还是那句。。。你开心就好。

我们活在两个时差的世界，
最终还是败给了时间，

我爱你，但以与你无关。

不是我不在乎，不是我不关心。

只是告别，离别时
对你来说，没差别

I'll still be here if you need me

Do you ever think this sentence was appopriate when ironically it never was...

Been thinking about going for further education this few days.
Of course if given the opportunity to do so, and I can afford it, why not?
But there's so much to put down in order to go...
My mom, my doggies, my friends and my job.
Even though i would say studying is in my own interest, purely for my own potential career advancement, part of it came down to her

Maybe i'm trying to escape reality, i've accepted the fact, for all the efforts that i've put in for the past years...all i get in return was 'my life doesn't consist of only you'

Future is full of uncertainty, people are asking me funny question like 'what?! cooking need degree?'

Who knows? Definetely not now, but maybe as the tourism sector progress, the in-depth knowledge of the industry progress as well?

HOROSCOPE
You will be presented with many opportunities to allow you to develop and grow this year.
There will be severe people issues and you should be prepared that there will be a high tendency that you might lose your friends along the way.
People might get jealous and start to pick on you alleging that you are arrogant and proud.
The temptation to bury yourself in your work at hand and to give of your best might lead you to isolate yourself and in doing so you might lose many friends.
This will result in more problems for you by affecting your progress at work with colleagues and friends refusing you their cooperation. As a result, more problems might start to snowball from here.
Deal with these people issues and be diplomatic in doing so. With your charm and intelligence, you will be able to manage those who oppose you.
Aside from this, your immune system will be poor this year and you might easily contract common illnesses.
Your relationship will also be unstable.
The stress that you receive from other areas of your life seem to cloud your judgment of your relationship.


Its scary, its so accurate! Almost everything gotcha!
Work is great,long time never meet up with friends, for some reason or another, i guess i'm being 'forgotten' for some ridiculous events that happen around my friends...So what else to do but work work work!!! As things go...I start to realise how empty i am outside of work...The 'Charm and intelligence' and being diplomatic is not 'zhun' lol...
Yup fact is i keep falling sick, coughing all the damn time, nose bleed for months..
Relationship with family and friends becoming non-existable.
Stress is something that I can do without but why is it piling onto me constantly?

除了叹气，我又能如何？

Went JB yesterday for acu-pressure massage for 2 hours with cheong,ju and eugene.
Its was a fun trip with cheong..Me and cheong were in the same room during massage and he was laughing all the time from the ticklish feeling, damn it was so painful for me, but after it was over, i felt so relax...
We had Cantonese Roast as late lunch before a short shopping trip and eventually went for nasi lemak. Hmm..the nasi lemak was said to be run by a former Sultan's chef but it was rather dissapointing..

Today i went JB again, this time with ah fat and CK, damn went to the JPJ, which is the equivalent of our LTA...For just a piece of letter for car license conversion, we had to wait 2hrs. Unbelievable efficiency! So we started talking to random people and there's this fella whom turn out to be the brother of my former chef from Petit Salut...my goodness, of all places...

Its so pleasant to be talking to someone who turn out to be a kin of someone whom you know...

Then i went for massage again..haha..thai massage this time..the one where they start cracking every part of your bone! Wonderful! Dinner at Taman Sentosa was good. Roast duck, Deep fried pig trotter, claypot braised lamb! Yummy!

I hope i'll get a good sleep tonight!

raNdoM fEEliNg


smooth road never make good drivers,

calm sea never makes good sailors,

clear skies never make good pilots,

How often we wish for another chance to start afresh,
to make admends for our mistake...

It doesn't take much time, just that one moment when your thought come through,
it doesn't take much effort, just that one bit of desire to try with your heart...

Love is not finding the right person, right character,
its about building the right relationship.
its not a matter of how much we start out with,
its how much we build in the end.

It really take a lot of effort from 2 person to keep it going.
When you start coming up with excuses with every little thing that prevent you from making it work...when you start to lose that effort to keep it going.
Then what can you do when its not heading towards the direction you both perceive to be heading?

Its really embarrassing to say but fact that time and again, i put down my dignity only to get cold hard stare in return, it really kill off bit by bit, everything that i once desire to hold...

This decision is not as easy to make as the one before. I can't really hold my head up high and say no regret, a tinge of ache still bother me whenever mentioned.

过了这么多，原来我还是一个人

无形的压力压得我好累。
是自己给于的要求太苛刻，
还是别人眼里的我就是这样？

想找个人分担忧愁才发现原来我都是一个人。
Work seems like the only things that left in my life.


Even wanting to meet for movie and dinner seems so insisting and unwilling.
I guess KTV, chit-chatting, tea-drinking session with friends seems to pose a happier option.

I can see you making calls and arranging for all those sessions, from morning 7am till evening 8pm i don't even get a msg nor call. Now thats what i deem loving issn't it?

Enough of all these blah blah bullshit. Work so hard get doubts in return, being in love get so tied down, so 'exhausting emotionally' if thats what you mean it is in return..whats there left in meaning of life?

Yes thats it..May is over!
A week of midnight shift is over..finally can get a good rest and resume life back to normalcy!